“Uncertainty as to our relationship with God is one of the most enfeebling and dispiriting of things. It makes a man heartless. It takes the pith out of him. He cannot fight. He cannot run. He is easily dismayed and gives way. He can do nothing for God. But when we know that we are of God, we are vigorous, brave, invincible. There is no more quickening truth than this of assurance.” Horatius Bonar

When I open the Bible I open to adventure and bold voices and calls of repentance. I read about men and women with authority and power. I see Paul bravely proclaiming the gospel in every place he goes. Unafraid of retribution. Sure of himself, confidence oozing from the seal of the spirit. I see Peter give up everything for the sake of the gospel. And the women who fiercely prayed and were messengers and partners – I see them, too.

And I kind of dig them.

When I read the adventurous life in the Bible, I want my life to be filled with purpose and adventure, too.

Don’t you?

But my adventure comes with stipulations.

Give me the purposeful journey.

But without the boldness.

Give me the romance.

Without the sacrifice.

Give me the mission.

Without the spears that come with it.

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Basically, I’m all for the Hollywood rendition when the only people truly affected, are those that had to actually sacrifice their time, passion and joy.

And I’d like to take my seat and enjoy the film, please and thank you.

But maybe that is why the church isn’t changing the world?

Because I am the church and so are you, and last time I checked a girl needed some gumption + boldness to change the laundry, let alone the world.

This is where we see a crossroads in our world. Because some will say, “Yes!” Make me bold and give me a plan! But sister, the last thing you and I need is some five-step to boldness plan. “Ten ways to live brave.” Nope. That simply makes us tired and overwhelmed.

Can I offer a different solution? Actually, can Horatius? I think he is onto the root of our problems.

I have an uncertainty of who I am in God. Maybe you do, too?

I am uncertain of my power in Him, my authority in Him, my future in Him. I can’t find boldness until I find myself in Christ and His mission again and again.

Because typically I am settling for an unchallenging conversation at Starbucks, suppressing my heart’s real desire for adventure. Trying to fake myself into purpose while drinking a latte and dreaming of Target.

Don’t say you’ve never done it, either.


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praying the B word

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But our Bible role models might get a tad angry at our Starbucks drinking, Netflix crunching, worry-induced, safe lives. Because adventure didn’t come in the form of coffee for the early disciples, but in praying for boldness.

 “And now, Lord, consider their threats and grant that your servants may speak your word with all boldness, while you stretch out your hand for healing, and signs and wonders are performed through the name of your holy servant Jesus. When they had prayed the place where they were assembled was shaken and they were all filled with the Holy Spirit and they began to speak the word of God boldly.” Acts 4: 29-31

Sisters, these were regular ordinary people who understood whose they were and what authority was given to them. They knew the power of God and as His children, it was their power, too.

They weren’t magical. They were just sure.

They weren’t more brave. They simply allowed His mission to be their mission.

They weren’t superheros, the just found some gumption after seeing a risen Lord.

So, yeah, I’m praying the B word around my home because I’m sick and tired of a safe life. Last I checked, I like the feeling of being brave and invincible and vigorous. So, Horatious, I’m with you.

Let’s know whose we are and do this thing, boldly. You in?